Contemplative Musings and Other Redundant Thoughts

Random musings of my life.

Monday, December 06, 2004

Being real the 'new' fake?


I guess I'm tired if I'm really honest, tired of this life getting people down, maybe even frustrated that where others are often takes me down to a bit with them. Why is that? I've been pretty encouraged lately but maybe that has just been a push by me to be overly encouraging to help the people that are hurting around me... I don't think so, but maybe.

Seems like everything in this world has a 'new something' McDonalds medium fries is basically their new small, a tall coffee is the 'new' short, black the 'new' red and probably red the 'new' black...

Is being real the 'new' fake? I feel like everwhere I look, well not really everywhere but better for dramatic effect, people are trying to be 'real'. What is that anyway? It seems to me that being real to a lot of people is just a cover for the real issues? Maybe I should be looking at myself and not others of late, but that is just where I am... ya know, being real. Should I cover up my feeling so not to offend people? Ya I have my ups and downs and yes, life can get down right hard even if God offers us a ton of simple truths. I shouldn't bottle up everything should I?

All these people that I have been reading about lately just seem like they 'get it'! I truely want that but it so eludes me... I often get it but then poof... A week like this when life throws everything it has at you and then you hit the wall. .... Wait... news flash****

"Silent all these years" from Tori Amos "little earthquakes" just came on the radio at the place I'm writting from, I'll have to look at those lyrics.
"Years go by and I still be waiting for someone to understand, dropped all my tears till there is nothing left... some times I hear my voice and it's been.... silent all these years.

I like God's sense of humor, you know your all about to go off on a topic and then he plays a simple song on the radio with deep lyrics and it just speaks to you.... funny, anyway...

Why does this resonate so much with everyone? Why with me even? Do we just enjoy life when it gets tough? Are people just looking at others that are in their same discontented state to be 'real' with?

Now don't judge me too much because I've been there, yup down in the dumps, no light at the end of the tunnel, just swimmin' to stay afloat. So don't think that I just want everyone to put on a happy face and just fake it. I used to really have a hard time with people that seemed like they just were so happy but had never experience hardship in their lives. I don't want to be trite, I don't want to come off as just pull yourselves up by your bootstraps and put on a happy face to people I meet... I just desperately want it to be true! I want to see the joy filled lives in the people around me. I want to see that in my own life beyond everything. I guess this post is more about what is going on with me than with the people around me. Maybe more about why people that are being 'real' scare me. Maybe I'm the one that tries so hard to help people out of their holes that I end up pretending that I'm just fine.

I guess everyone is trying to be 'real' in their own way. My question is, how does Jesus want us to be with each other? Share stuggles to what extent? Be 'real' to what extent? Just my messing thoughts. Don't worry, I'll never really 'get it' I'm just along for the ride. If I offended anyone, I'm sorry. Don't be too offended... it's not really you... It's probably just me... I'll try to be more real:)




2 Comments:

  • At 8:14 PM, Blogger H. West said…

    wow. That was really offensive.... no, not really at all. I've always thought that maturity is seeing things are they really are. I think being real is along those lines. Not just spewing out stuff becuase you want people to feel sorry for you, but admitting that you are screwed up and there is nothing you can do about it-- seeing that only God can make you what you are supposed to be. Or, like Rob Bell said, we need to claim every part of us, being one as God is one. I think being real isn't hiding anything. Allowing ourselves to be who were are, whether its who we think we should be or not. I say, God has made me to be exactly who I am at this moment, so why not live it? if i'm supposed to be something else, He'll let me know. In the meantime, i'm going to live in the REALity of who I am now.

    Anyway, thanks for asking the questions. Sometimes i think you have it all figured out, and it helps me to see you as a REAL person. even though i don't know if teachers really are real people.... hmmm... anyway, how will we find the answers if we are never brave enough to ask the questions?

    Heidi

     
  • At 8:09 PM, Blogger Mark Schreiber said…

    Thanks Heidi,

    And no, I don't have it all figured out. But I am along for the ride, and God ussually has a pretty wild ride for us if we just have the faith to hold on:)

    BTW... you rock!

     

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